Death
My uncle has had diabetes for a very long time. A few years ago it hit hard and now it's gotten so severe that he is "expected" to die any moment. He has gain green in both feet and refuses dialysis and a surgery that would put him with a feeding tube. There is no way to prepare for death but I have lost so much and so many people just since November 2012. On top of that, I have another uncle dying and keeps passing out going to the hospital from an unknown illness. I don't have words that can master the way I feel. I don't know how much more I can handle, my heart cannot handle any more of this pain. I have been called stupid for feeling the level of depression that I am in, and for dealing with it in a way that causes me physical pain. Doesn't anyone understand? I am not mentally equipped to deal with this much death and loss within such a hard time. It feels as though someone has kidnapped all that I loved, put them into one room and bombed them all. I feel so small and alone in this world, and it's not getting better at all. I just need one person to curl up with and who is able to be stronger than I am. It takes a strong person to love a broken woman who keeps being broken.
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As I have said to you before, if you need some one to talk to feel free to send me a message. I hope you get feeling better.
Grief while depressed is incredibly tough to deal with. Loss of family members is the sort of thing that can cause depression, dealing with it while already depressed requires a great amount of strength. People on the outside just may not understand that each day you can wake up and keep going into more pain is a greater display of strength than most people will ever show. Life has been cruel to you, but if I could put a slightly different spin on your last sentence, it\'ll just take someone perceptive to love the strength in someone who keeps putting herself back together after life tears her down. And people like that are out there. Hope anything I said helped, good luck.