UPDATE
I went to a friends house...with the key to the gun cabinet the other night during the crisis. After talking to my husband he has agreed on getting more help. He is scared to death to go to the hospital, and i dont blame him. Look up Georgia mental hospitals...there have been serious abuse and deaths and without insurance private hospitals are out.
I have no where to go for long term and I missed my pets so I am back home. He hasn't really left the bedroom. He is very depressed that he doesn't have the money to pay his truck. They will come get it. I thought about running but can't even do that.
I'm ready for a change...i don't want to live like this. I'm going to try to make an appointment with the sliding scale state funded mental health center...I had bad experiences last time. it took forever to finally see a dr and get meds....and then that dr didnt like prescribing klonopin....the only med that works for my anxiety without side effects. But I will try. I don't have much of a choice.
I'm worried about darktwistybtch and JavaFirst...i don't know either but my feelings resonated with what they were saying.
I have no where to go for long term and I missed my pets so I am back home. He hasn't really left the bedroom. He is very depressed that he doesn't have the money to pay his truck. They will come get it. I thought about running but can't even do that.
I'm ready for a change...i don't want to live like this. I'm going to try to make an appointment with the sliding scale state funded mental health center...I had bad experiences last time. it took forever to finally see a dr and get meds....and then that dr didnt like prescribing klonopin....the only med that works for my anxiety without side effects. But I will try. I don't have much of a choice.
I'm worried about darktwistybtch and JavaFirst...i don't know either but my feelings resonated with what they were saying.
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Hey girl!!! I am okay and I hope you know nothing you said triggered me at all. I know exactly were you are coming from on the state funded healthcare. I am in Alabama and I go to a mental health center on a sliding scale fee and I go to clinics for other stuff and the health care is of course sub-par. The hospital is horrible and even with suicide attempts they will let people go after a couple days if they have no health insurance and it makes me so angry. I took a pill splitter to my wrist several years ago in the ER while waiting on a doctor and they did not committ me. I was very psychotic and I had a psychotic break one time and no hospitilization all because of one thing, no health insurance. Poor people get screwed all the time. I am not destitute but we are uninsured and we struggle so much financially and it sucks. I can not have kids and you know what people say to me, thank god you can not and I mean it hurts. Oh well I fight my suicidal urges alot and it is so hard and when I do get that way of course I let people on here know because it helps to get it out but at the same time some may not understand why I do not go to the ER and it is because it is a waste of time. I pretty much have to attempt suicide to even be admitted. My brother was in July and he took 20 sleeping pills and drank alcohol and these dumb butts let him go after only 4 days!!! Alabama truly sucks and guess what, Mississippi is even worse than Alabama and Georgia and I can not imagine what it is even like there.
Hey, I\'ve been busy with school plus my tablet that I usually get on DS with died on me...I haven\'t even had time to call customer support on that...I\'m sure that will be fun. The times I was committed was to private hospitals because I had insurance then, and its better than what I hear about other places. I set up an appt anyway to try to give them another try (the sliding scale govt agency mental health called pineland here) and now I\'m wondering if I should do that or not. I am planning on going into a social work program and they ask that on the application. She said they are mainly concerned with criminal records, which I don\'t have. I didn\'t say anything about my issues, I just nodded my head and said oh shit to myself.
People just don\'t think when they say stuff like that...about not having kids. I\'ve had an ectopic pregnancy and a miscarriage and haven\'t been able to get pregnant in about 2 1/2 years and don\'t have the money to really find out why. When I did have insurance he just did bloodwork which all came back fine and said I think you have PCOS and gave me something to make me ovulate. After 6 cycles of that it made me ovulate but no pregnancy and it hurts, it feels like theres a big hole inside of me. I guess thats why I have so many pets. But sometimes I think that to myself when I\'m going throught the lows emotionally and financially...no wonder I can\'t get pregnant. I\'m ramblinng...but I\'m glad you are still here in the land of the living but hate to hear that you can\'t get the help you need either because of this bs mental healthcare system. I remember when I had insurance when I had insurance under my parents when I was younger they kept me for almost 2 months! Unbelievable. And I just had a plan that time...I was 20. My parents could have bought a new house after all that.
The other night got so crazy, I was afraid I\'d triggered something cause next time I was on you were doing it and deleting your account. It kinda freaked me out, but I guess because I saw a bit of myself in your pain.