feeling better

I haven't wrote in my journal in a while.  I never feel like it, and that was one of my goals was to try to get my feelings out whenever I first joined DS. 
Well I've been ok this past week.  I've been pretty restless, but I've managed.  Thursday me and my husband went to see a movie and out to eat.  This is huge for me, because I never leave the house, never want to leave the house for that matter.  So we had a good time.  Then Friday I had to go to the pdoc.  I had to make another appt just to get my paperwork filled out!  Ridiculous.  Anyway, we ate at Spanky's and I went to Michael's to buy a hoop to work on my cross stitching.  Also went to the mall and bought some clothes.  Feeling pretty good at this point.
Today I got up and practiced my violin.  I haven't done that in forever, and worked on my cross stitching, watched a little tv and got on DS and talked to a few people.  I'm proud of myself for actually doing something today and getting out more this week. 
Ohh yeah, pdoc upped my dosage of Lexapro to 40mg to help with depression.  Its worked wonders for everything else my anxiety, agitation etc...abilify is helping with obsessing and mania...i'm doing ok.
I did have a few days that Its been hard to go to sleep at night.  I keep thinking of the miscarriages I've had in the last six years and I cry and cry.  Then I wake in the morning and feel ok.  Maybe Im healing from it all.  I just need to make sure that I don't obsess about the past and don't get too depressed that I haven't been able to have kids yet.