The morning after she went clubbing is the first time I've seen she is no longer wearing her engagement and wedding bands. In the back if my mind I knew she wouldn't be. She did that before. In fact the best text message I ever received from her is a photo of her hand wearing her engagement and wedding bands. But seeing it this morning after she was clubbing last night tears at my soul.
We took the boys to see the Star Wars movie. I fear it will be the last time as a family. The movie was great and my wife was kind and happy. Of course I managed to annoy her after and I fear the boys noticed the bitterness from her. I did my best to keep my eyes towards God and heart on my son's to let it roll off. These ticket stubs are going somewhere safe for the future. Not cruel but nice memory.
We took the boys to see the Star Wars movie. I fear it will be the last time as a family. The movie was great and my wife was kind and happy. Of course I managed to annoy her after and I fear the boys noticed the bitterness from her. I did my best to keep my eyes towards God and heart on my son's to let it roll off. These ticket stubs are going somewhere safe for the future. Not cruel but nice memory.
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Greg, I am sorry, I was hoping that she had an awful time at the club.
Try to stay positive & smile, even though your heart is breaking. Pray, but if the marriage does end do not blame God. It is her free will, ... Sorry, I don\'t believe in destiny. I wish that I could as it would make acceptance much easier.
When did all of this start? You mentioned, last time she took off her rings. My has been has played this game with me for over 2 years. He had to get his ducks in a row. His words, not mine.
Is she still planning on counseling? Maybe the deep thought process of that will bring her around. Don\'t throw in the towel until you have no choice.
I have no regrets. I tried everything I could think of, it\'s no longer my choice.
My daughter is very talented. She has a Masters degree in art. She was an art teacher K - 12th grade but the yearly budget cuts cost her job. She couldn\'t make enough to pay her bills. :(
I hope that you have a good night. Remember that smiles are contagious!
Thanks for the encouragement. Putting my experiences into words and getting such awesome support does so much to keep me following what I feel is the right thing to do. I will see this to healing or ending but I need to know I\'m doing right for my children, myself, and even her. Even though I\'m fighting tooth and nail to save my precious marriage and family, I know that if I put in 100% and she ends it with no remorse afterwards I will have helped her find peace. Yes she has not said she is not going to counseling. Of course I fear she may withdraw her offer to go when the time comes, but I will try to have faith in her. The cynical hurt part of me feels she may use the appointment for a stage to officially end the relationship. The remaining part of me knows we have been blessed with a wonderful and salvageable marriage she just can\'t see right now because she is looking through glasses of negativity and unhappiness.
During the movie... In the moment she looked to me for warmth (she was cold) and laughed and talked with me. She even kissed my head. Those moments help me so. I only wish they were not so brief and made more of lasting impression on her.
I truly wish I did not see or feel that things my overly sensitive heart feels are indications she is through until it is through. That way I can more easily be the man she might realize is the one for her.
Your overly sensitive heart is what makes you, YOU. That is probably what your wife was drawn to in the first place. Be proud of it & yourself.
Fight the fight to the finish. Be positive & have no regrets, give it your all.
Does she know how you feel? Have you opened up your heart to her. I know that you have on here.
But, with me, it is much easier writing my feeling than speaking them because I am an introvert. Being shy by nature makes it hard to verbalize my feelings, even people that I love.
I am really thinking that the counseling will help both of you.
Stay positive, ... Everyone loves a happy face. Enjoy the present time with your wife. Let tomorrow take care of tomorrow. Prayers for you & your whole family.
P.S. Let her know just how much you enjoyed that kiss on the forehead. It can\'t hurt anything so it can only help. :)
I am big on being open and honest and have made myself very clear how much I love her, want to save the marriage, and will do anything I can to prove both. As far as the kiss, I thanked her immediately with a whisper in her ear. I believe my expressiveness is not something she wants right now so I have to be very careful. My instincts are very strong within me to express my feelings go to her and I have to reign them in. It is very hard.
You are truly a blessing. Stay positive. Prayers. :)