Things were going well, for a while. But now I don't know what is going on. I slipped back just as I thought. I haven't been eating, and yet no one has noticed. Except my boyfriend ( who I've been with for 2 months now:)! ), but I told him that I just don't get hungry and there wasn't a problem. He believed me, at least I think he did. And now I am starting to have emotional issues with the fact of having a boyfriend, it seems to be linked with my childhood traumas. Being molested really tore apart some of my emotional capasities. The other night when I was with my boyfriend I was so nervous, it was really sudden, and I just had such mixed emotions about what we were doing. I'm such an emotional mess, and I don't know who to tell. I can't go to my parents because they would over react to what was happening, and my boyfriend doesn't know about what happened to me as a child. I don't know if I should tell him, especially because I might then tell him how terrified I am at the idea of sex. And for some reason I am paranoid that he would leave me if he knew that, even though it is unlikely because he is a really great guy. I have no one to talk to and I am falling apart emotionally. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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