Well, I finished the writing bit of my PhD tonight. Now got a week to do all the referencing, pruning, editing and shit.  And within an hour of finishing I was in the pub. Only had two and half pints. But to be honest I feel shit. Really, incredibly shit....  In fact Ive felt shit all day. It feels difficult to relate to normal people when youve got so much shit whirring round your brain. Thoughts of death, guilt, remorse, worthlessness. Blah Blah Blah...  Its not that Im suicidal or anything as dramatic as that. But I dont feel good at the moment. Im sure after a good nights sleep Ill feel better. Sleep does tend to sort my brain out. I think when Ive totally finished this PhD  though Im going to go back to the docs and ask for a different antidepressant, cos this Trazadone doesnt seem to do much any more except for send me to sleep. Im sure I shouldnt be getting these thoughts of death like I am. It never occurs for me to act on them or anything, but they are distressing thoughts nevertheless, kind of obsessive and intrusive, often seeming to come from nowhere. I can be deep in concentration and the death thought will just come into my mind. Most of the time its just fleeting and Ill get back on with my work and forget about it for a while. Today though the thoughts have been more frequent and intrusive.  Anyway, tomorrow I should hopefully feel better. Hope everyones ok x