A terrible night last night. Got terribly drunk and started talking the usual self important pompous rubbish. No wonder people dont like me. Im just sick of the stupid scenarios which booze gets me in. Why cant I just be myself in front of people rather than this pissed baffoon. Always felt socially awkward though, right from being a little kid. still, none of it really matters. Im beyond help.
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your not beyond help....have you thought of going for treatment .....there are places you can go and recover....i would encourage you to check them out.....it will only help......i know people who booked themselves in and they are doing great now......just needed to get away from the booze......
Thank you for this. Its been a horrible day, but, I guess time and the hour... etc.
Most of today Ive just thought there was nothing worth saving. These thoughts just kept going through my head over and over. The idea that looking inside myself, there is nothing there. Nothing worth saving, and nothing to save. I know the outsider might just say im self-obsessed, looking inward, blah blah... And I guess may there would be an element of truth to that.
But my only friend and companion and saviour, that I can always rely on, is God. So many times when I have been at my lowest Ebb He has saved me.
I also read the bible, and gain great comfort.
So when Im at my lowest ebb, even if I dont think theres anything worth saving, I hope - in fact I think deep dwon I know - that God thinks otherwise.