I'm a real mess, I've taken two over doses in 8wks. I don't see the point of life anymore. I'm sick of being told that I'm strong, sick of being told that I'm incredible for everything that I have been through. I'm not that strong and people just don't see it. My dad left me through suicide 15yrs ago, I think he had the right idea. I mean we are all going to die anyway, why not choose it rather than just waiting around in this living hell we are in. I wish I had been sucessful the two times I have already tried. Hopefully God (if there is one) will put me out of my misery very soon.
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I have no idea what I could say that would help. I wouldn\'t be able to hear another \"I\'ve been there\" story if I were in your shoes, but if it would at least make it seem a little less lonely, know that I have felt as you have and it has passed. Life is not all roses and sunshine for me, but I\'m glad that I chose to live. I still get suicidal once in a while. I have had to remind my self that I don\'t want to die, I just don\'t want to live \"like this.\" I don\'t even know if that makes sense. My heart is aching for you right now. I know my words are just words, but I hope you can see past them and know that I care. When I was thinking of ending my life, there was no such thing as an internet, so I longed to know that just one other person had felt as bad as I was feeling and chose to live anyway. I eventually met people who felt that way AFTER I felt that way. I hope that by telling you just a little about my story helps you to know that you aren\'t on this journey alone. If I could be there for you in person, I would. For now, know that there is one other in this world who has felt that despair and who remembers it very well. Big hugs to you.
My Dear lovely friend I wish I could be with you to hold your hand or even give you one long loving hug. I know when you feel like this nothing anyone says seems to help......right? I have found that just to have someone be with me has always helped. No they can never really understand how awful you are feeling but if they care enough to be there for you it means a lot.
Please please hold onto the fact that there are people here at DS that really DO CARE about you dear one. I dont know anything else I can tell you but know that I am thinking of you and praying for you. I too have been in the place where you are and yes tried ,even at high school to end it all, so I think I can almost know how you are feeling. Everyone is different and has different Painful stuff in their life and we cant know exactly how someone else if effected by things they live through. My ex had nothing horrible in his life so he didn\'t have a hope in hell of understanding what I suffered or how it felt to be treated like I had no value to anyone.
Anyway dear friend I hope you can understand that we are beside you in all of this and can imagine the warm hand holding yours in friendship and love.
Susannah