Getting Better

I so want to feel better. And I do feel better than in times past. I have to remember that. It's when I let my mind wander and dwell on past hurts and mistakes I really get so down. Memories can feel like a sledgehammer to the gut. I wish I could go back in time and do things differently. So many things. But I can't and that is hard to accept. Each day is a struggle not to let these memories surface, they can make me feel physically ill. And I want to get better. I don't want to stay stuck in the sadness and regret. Maybe the right meds will help, but it seems like such a long road and I hate being a guinea pig for meds. But at least I am on a path with possibilities. And hope for Getting Better.