THIS IS ME... BLUE, BLUE BLUE!!! STILL NOT ON TOP OF MY GAME. JUST MAJOR DEPRESSION!!! I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO GET A HANDLE ON IT THIS TIME. EVERYTHING BOTHERS ME. I JUST WANT TO GO TO BED AND NOT GET UP. BUT I CAN'T.. TOO MUCH TO DO... !! I'M TRYING NOT TO OVERWORK MYSELF OR FOCUS ON HOW MUCH NEEDS TO BE DONE BUT EVERYONE OUT THERE KNOWS HOW HARD THIS IS. GOOD INTENTIONS GO TO HELL IN A HAND BASKET RIGHT NOW. I HAVE DELEGATED SOME OF THE WORK TO MICHAEL BUT THERE IS SO.... MUCH I NEED TO DO AND I JUST SEEM LIKE I'M IN A FOG AND WALKING IN CIRCLES. CAN'T FOCUS, I DO A LITTLE THIS , A LITTLE THAT BUT NOTHING GETS COMPLETELY DONE SO AT THE END OF THE DAY I AM EVEN MORE DEPRESSED.\HAD AN APPOINTMENT WITH MY COUNSELLOR ON MONDAY AND WE WERE SUPPOSE TO SPEND THE HOUR TALKING AND WORKING ON MY ANXIETY ISSUES. WELL, THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN!!! I SPENT THE ENTIRE TIME BAWLING MY EYES OUT. WE TALKED ABOUT SOME OF THE STRESS ISSUES. BUT SHE SAID THAT I JUST NEED TO PRACTICE MY TECHNIQUES AND TO PICK AND CHOOSE MY BATTLES. SHE'S RIGHT!! I KNOW THIS!! BUT FOR SOME REASON I AM NOT WINNING THE BATTLE THIS TIME...CRY!!I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE DECORATIONS OUT OF THE ATTIC YET, LET ALONE UP. I USUALLY HAVE THE HOUSE DONE INSIDE THE FIRST WEEK IN DEC. AND IT'S NOT EVEN STARTED. RIGHT NOW I REALLY DON'T CARE. LET MICHAEL CHUCK UP THE TREE, THROUGH A FEW ORNAMENTS ON IT AND CALL IT DONE. YEAH, LIKE THAT WOULD WORK FOR ME... NOT!!! ANYWAY, GUYS, I AM DOING THE BEST I CAN BUT IT'S JUST NOT ENOUGH RIGHT NOW. SO... I WILL STILL BE OUT OF TOUCH FOR AWHILE YET. I THINK OF ALL OF YOU EVRYDAY AND I TRULY MISS MY CONTACT WITH ALL OF YOU. THANK YOU TO ALL THAT HAVE SENT HUGS AND GET WELL WISHES. EVEN IF I DON'T ANSWER THEM, I REALLY, REALLY....APPRECIATE THEM.SO BYE FOR NOW. DEBBIE
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im so sorry that you feel this way deb! you will be missed sorely and i will pray that this funk will lighten up for you soon so that you can let it go and do the things you enjoy once again! im thinking of you and wishing i could give a hug...
I know this is difficult for you to feel like this. Please try to be good to you and remember that all will get done in its time. We cant always do all that we do when we think we should do it. Remember that you have been physically ill and sometimes that throws our chemicals out of wack. It just may take a little longer to get through this than usual. Try to enjoy the little things and the rest will come. I will be thinking of you and praying for you. Hugs
Take care of yourself right now and I hope you will feel better soon. I\'m sorry that you are so down.
Hugs Cathy
Hey I know how you feel and there really isn\'t much you can do but wait it out and hope it ends soon.
When I\'m in that spiral I try to find one thing, even if it\'s a really small thing, that I can get completely done that day so I don\'t feel like I was a totaly waste of air.
I was doing pretty good wiht my decorating then ran out of steam and now can\'t work up the energy to care if I finish or not, hope that passes as decorating for Christmas is the part Winter and I enjoy the most, that and eating all the cookies and goodies. Hugs and loves, Georgia