THIS IS ME... BLUE, BLUE BLUE!!! STILL NOT ON TOP OF MY GAME. JUST MAJOR DEPRESSION!!! I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO GET A HANDLE ON IT THIS TIME. EVERYTHING BOTHERS ME. I JUST WANT TO GO TO BED AND NOT GET UP. BUT I CAN'T.. TOO MUCH TO DO... !! I'M TRYING NOT TO OVERWORK MYSELF OR FOCUS ON HOW MUCH NEEDS TO BE DONE BUT EVERYONE OUT THERE KNOWS HOW HARD THIS IS. GOOD INTENTIONS GO TO HELL IN A HAND BASKET RIGHT NOW. I HAVE DELEGATED SOME OF THE WORK TO MICHAEL BUT THERE IS SO.... MUCH I NEED TO DO AND I JUST SEEM LIKE I'M IN A FOG AND WALKING IN CIRCLES. CAN'T FOCUS, I DO A LITTLE THIS , A LITTLE THAT BUT NOTHING GETS COMPLETELY DONE SO AT THE END OF THE DAY I AM EVEN MORE DEPRESSED.\HAD AN APPOINTMENT WITH MY COUNSELLOR ON MONDAY AND WE WERE SUPPOSE TO SPEND THE HOUR TALKING AND WORKING ON MY ANXIETY ISSUES. WELL, THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN!!! I SPENT THE ENTIRE TIME BAWLING MY EYES OUT. WE TALKED ABOUT SOME OF THE STRESS ISSUES. BUT SHE SAID THAT I JUST NEED TO PRACTICE MY TECHNIQUES AND TO PICK AND CHOOSE MY BATTLES. SHE'S RIGHT!! I KNOW THIS!! BUT FOR SOME REASON I AM NOT WINNING THE BATTLE THIS TIME...CRY!!I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE DECORATIONS OUT OF THE ATTIC YET, LET ALONE UP. I USUALLY HAVE THE HOUSE DONE INSIDE THE FIRST WEEK IN DEC. AND IT'S NOT EVEN STARTED. RIGHT NOW I REALLY DON'T CARE. LET MICHAEL CHUCK UP THE TREE, THROUGH A FEW ORNAMENTS ON IT AND CALL IT DONE. YEAH, LIKE THAT WOULD WORK FOR ME... NOT!!! ANYWAY, GUYS, I AM DOING THE BEST I CAN BUT IT'S JUST NOT ENOUGH RIGHT NOW. SO... I WILL STILL BE OUT OF TOUCH FOR AWHILE YET. I THINK OF ALL OF YOU EVRYDAY AND I TRULY MISS MY CONTACT WITH ALL OF YOU. THANK YOU TO ALL THAT HAVE SENT HUGS AND GET WELL WISHES. EVEN IF I DON'T ANSWER THEM, I REALLY, REALLY....APPRECIATE THEM.SO BYE FOR NOW. DEBBIE