Not sure how I feel this am. Up and down. did not sleep well last night second night in a row. so I did something I never do I took some extra pills. That did the trick. Yes, yes, I know this is not the solution in the long run but for one night it was bliss. I woke up at four and did some dishes from making cookies the night before. Then I was tired and went back to bed. I dozed on and off until 12:00!!! Not like me at all. I was depressed and really needed a friend to talk to but everyone was out. I was pissed off because no one was home for me and I'm always there for them. This is a silly thing to think, I know. People have busy lives, they don't revolve around me. Just feeling sorry for myself. I need a good swift kick in the butt!!! So I'm sitting here trying my best to focus on others and their situations and i realize how lucky I really am compared to some other people.
Went to Women's Group yesterday and it was our 3rd meeting everyone started opening up. We did not even make it through the agenda. The leaders felt it was better to have the ladies vent and tell their stories. Let me tell you some of these gals are going though so much in their lives and have been for many years. They are beat down and crushed under foot. I felt so unworthy to be in the group becase compared to them I've got it easy. My heart goes out to them!!! Originally, we were not suppose to have a meeting next week because one of the leaders will be away but everyone wanted to have the meeting anyway just to continue the talk therapy.
On the good news side. Our hot tub has arrived and we are going to get it on Sat. It's about an hour and a half drive bt that's okay by me. I'm excited but after the ladies group I feel guilty about getting such a luxury.
Anyway, good by my friends, talk later. be well, Debbie
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Debbie : I would love to come and usxe your Hot Tub sounds good to me. Don\'t feel guilty about your hot tub we all need someting nice in this life. God bless you with the strength to be able to listgen and help others. This site has really helped me to realize I\'m not the only one with problems. You take care and remember to smile and always give some one a hug. ~~~~Suzanne
you could always come on here and talk to us if your depresed.we are here for you silly lady...you are always here for us.you know we love you .ya a hot tub.i have one and cant imagine my life without it .helps so much with aches and pain....enjoy it and dont feel guilty .you deserve it.love you hugs ..marie
Enjoy the hot tub! Soak away all your sorrows, picture them just floating away.....The woman\'s group sounds good. It is amazing what some women have gone through. We all have our crosses to bear. Blessings.
Hi Debbie, Enjoy your hot tub woman!!! And sweetie, sleep is so important to healing. Glad you and a good nights sleep for a change!Never forget we are all in the soup together, sharing, laughing, crying, all human.
Be happy splashing about in the new hot tub.
Jules
Oh BTW Indy Girl is very sick...could you maybe check out her journal and pray for her please.
Hi Debbie, I\'m so pleased to hear you had a good nights sleep, however you got it!! Once years ago ( when I was living in Amherst) I needed someome to talk to and nobody was home and I just cried and cried. Then I felt a nudge from the Holy Spirit of God that said God is always there to listen anytime you want. So I knelt by my bed and pouresd my heart out to God and He gave me so much peace that I now always turn to Him. There are times when I need to still talk with others but now I frist turn to Him. He\'s there for you too my dear.
I hope you enjoy your hot tub, I can\'t use them boo hoo, because of the stroke I had. I guess I\'m just hot stuff to start with. HA HA HA!
Enjoy your day dear friend, hugs Cathy
Maybe you could have the ladies over sometime. Are they nearby?
a womans group? i would love to join such a thing, but dont know of any around my area. Im sorry i havent been here for you lately...but you are on my heart and mind alot and my prayers as well! I hope you feel better soon and write us often...it will help in the long run!::::::::::bear hugs:::