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i've not been online as much as usual but I've been VERY busy!!! I was taking the opportunity of my up mood to get as much done as possble. Have had a good week or so, that's progress. But unfortunely, it seems like the demon is back !!! I think I over did it or something. I'm not in a great frame of mind this morning actually it started yesterday afternoon. Just kinda boom, I was there. I wish I knew how this happens and why. I guess if I did I'd be a very wealthy woman LOL.
I've been doing a lot in preparation for our hot tub room. the tub arrives at the end of Oct. so we have plenty of time to get the room done. But i'm always compulsive and it must be done NOW!!! I must be tough to live with but my hubby just goes along with me. He is such a caring soul and oh, so patient.
We''ll we finally finished the paintin, thank heavens!! We have installed our funky fan, oak color and the blades are slitly twisted. It even has a remote control for heaven's sake. I have been shopping for items for the room( Light melon walls, chocolate trim). I want a tropical look. I had my heart set on bamboo blinds and once I set my mind on it, i'm loke a dog with a bone, I won't let go!! I found them, yahoo!! We also bought the towel 3 tan, 1 chocolate, one medium green, and one melon. I have a wicker wine rack with 6 hole. I plan to roll up the towels and put them in the rack.. Got some real funky candles they look like bamboo. Already have my artificial palm now i just need the tiny white lights. Got other stuff too but I'll not bore yiu with that.
Had my first women's group session on tues. it was not bad but I was up all night feeling very anxious about it. the next session I should be better.
As I've said i'm not feeling the greatest right now, my mind is really in a fog. I mean a real fog. The following will let you know how bad it is. Yesterday i had a lot of errands to run, in and out of the jeep. i always lock the jeep with inside button instead of the remote on the car keys. When I came out of my final stop I could not find my keys anywhere, I was frantic that I had locked them in the car and my hubby was at least 45 minutes away. Oh, no it was much, much worse. I went to the car to see if I had locked my keys in. Not only were my keys in the car, THE CAR WAS RUNNING!!!! It really upset me. should have just stuck a sticker on it that said " TAKE ME ". I was in the grocery store for at least 1/2 and hour!! that was it I had to get home quickly before I had a melt down, which I did.
So here I am very under the weather and I have so... much to do today as my housework etc has been neglected because I was focessed on the spa room, not like me. Now I feel overwhelmed also did not sleep much or well last night. anyway that's my saga for today. Be well my dear friends, Debbie
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My gosh, you\'ve just taken too much onto yourself all at once. The trick is to pace yourself, even if you are compulsive about getting things done right away because trust me, I know what its like to want everything done now, and done right, but i have had to teach myself patience, and understanding. AS far as your room goes congratulations, but take your time! Maybe that\'s why you are so burnt out now. Just keep your head on straight, and keep going. Love ya.
Oh Debbie I\'m sorry but I had to laugh at your story and I\'m sorry you had a melt down and I\'m finding humor in it but I\'ve done that so much in in the past. I remember when I lived in Ottawa I locked myself out of my apt. for the whole day!! I went to go check the mail and grabbed the wrong keys, I tried to call the landlord from a neighbors phone but he wasn\'t home. So I ended up sitting on the steps in the hall way for something like 6 or 7 hours in the winter with only my slippers on until David got home from work!!!( I did have clothes on!!) That wasn\'t funny at the time either.
I hope my little story has brought a smile if not a chuckle to your day.
I hope you have a better day today and get some rest if possible, my friend. hugs Cathy
Rats!! I missed you, but I liked knowing you were busy and happy. I\'ve been there with locking the car with it running. We were on our way to a vacation so I had to live with my husband\'s jives for the rest of the vacation!!LOL I\'m a lot like you. When I feel well, I just keep going until I crash. Once you get that hot tub you will have a great place to destress when things get tough!! I hope you feel better soon. Hugs and more hugs, Donna
You aren\'t the only one that locks keys in the car. Alex locked his keys in the car at the hospital and had to call a friend from work to pick him up and bring him home to get my set of keys so he could get in the car. So we all do it from time to time. I know you will enjoy your hot tub when it get finshed. You are like I am you want every thing done NOW. Well I\'ve learned some times we have to take things in small steps. Have a wonderful week-end. ~~~~Suzanne
I am excited about your tub and enjoy! Sometimes when we get into that mode of NOW and we run a round like crazy I am way down on myself sometimes becasue of expectations that I have in my mind. I tend to not slow down and just enjoy...
Take care of you and I know you will find the time to just relax.
Debbie, I can relate to what you said so well. It is very difficult for me to recognize sometimes when I am taking on too much, when I do it is too late. One trick I have learned with any situation is to slow down, even stop, sit with a paper and pen and focus on the chore before me whether it be my day or one project. I set the largest priority for that day and focus on that. The list is to help me see the big picture in small bites, achieving them one at a time. It helps me be more patient. When I am feeling really good and energetic it is easy for me to do \"too\" much and throw myself into depression. One step at a time. You are doing well, just refocus and take it slower. I would love to talk sometime, I see we are the same age and could probably share some insights. Hugs for your day, keep smiling.*****Michelle
Michelle, I also keep a list and priotorize them by importance and this does help me pace myself, most of the time but every now and then I just go nuts and boom down I come. I think that part of it is when I feel good I want to make the most of it and ignore the warning signs. sometimes I do not ven get a warning. It\'s just suddenly I\'m down and out!! Looking forward to future chats. Be well, Debbie