Sorry guys for my short answers to your jounals, it was either that or don't answer at all. I am feeling worse today than yesterday. The reason, is more stress. And who provides me with more stress but my daughter!!! 
If I'm feeling well I can usually handle her problems but if I'm depressed already it sends me much deeper into the black pit of hell. Well, I can't write anymore, need to lay down and try to do some breathing exercises. Be well to all, Debbie
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My daughter did this to me yesterday too. I know mine is smart enough to realise that when I hit rock bottom, all I need is patience, a kind word and time. I know she gets scared when I am so depressed because it reminds her I am mortal, that I may not be around forever. My daughter can be a bully and i am too weak or fragile right now to stick up for myself.
Debbie, I hope you can protect yourself emotionally from your girl when you are like this.
Why can\'t they see we need THEIR support and comfort instead of us being the endless supplier for their needs?
I don\'t get it.
Thanks for you kind and wise words of support.
Take care
Jules
Being depressed is no different than being physically ill, sometimes you don\'t have the strenght to lift your head off of the pillow, and sometimes it hurts so bad you either can\'t stop crying or are so emotionally exauhsted that you can\'t cry at all. either way you are sick, and people in your life need to understand that. They need to take care of you, NOT the other way around. Your daughter is a big girl now, she needs to know when mom is just not up to dealing with much yet. Sometimes people really don\'t understand just how physical depression can get. It\'s hell, and when those around us don\'t understand it certainly doesn\'t make things any easier. I hope your husband is supporting you right now. I know he loves you no matter what. Debbie, I am so sorry that you are feeling so bad, I have been in that black pit and nothing is worse, You are doing everything you are supposed to be doing, just know it won\'t last forever no matter what it feels like right now. If I could reach my hand down into the hole and pull you out I would do it in a heartbeat, but we both know it\'s not that easy. At least you know you have a lot of people who care about you and are thinking and praying for you. Stay strong.
I AM SO SORRY YOU ARE NOT FEELING WELL.I KNOW THAT BLACKPIT ALL TOO WELL. PLEASE REST AND TAKE CARE OF YOUR SELF.DO YOU TAKE MEDICATION FOR DEPRESSION.CAN YOU TELL YOUR DAUGHTER THAT YOU CANT HANDLE HER PROBLEMS .THAT YOU ARE DEPRESSED.PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF...LOVE MARIE ....HUGS HUGS
You are a very special person to take time to respond to our journals when you are feeling so bad. I care a lot and hate to have you feel this way. I\'ll keep praying that things get better. Hugs and more hugs, Donna
Don\'t apologize we will all still be here for you even if you aren\'t always on a daily basis, I still get hugs and have been offline for weeks, true friends will still seek you out, take care and think of you first and us second, with love my friend, Bonnie
Hey Deb, Just want to say I love you and to hang in there. Ginny