Sorry, I did not write a journal yesterday, I got hung up on other paper work. I had insurance forms to fill out that took about an hour and a half. Then I had to finish reading 20 pages ( that's a lot for me, I must read everything about 4 times To get even part of it to stick). Next I had to answer the questions in each exercise, this is an activity my counsellor and I work on. the book is called When Perfect Isn't Good Enough. I am a REAL perfectionist. This activity took me 4 hours. After that I had no energy to be on the computer.

Last night I had a major bout of panic attacks and depression deepened for no reason I can think of. Still with me this morning. I've been up since 12 something. Panic attacks woke me up so I decided to go to the DS site to answer my emails.

Today I start my nutrisystem diet. I bought all the fruits and veggies plus dairy food that must be added to the daily meals they provide. I am going to start going back to the gym at least 3 times a week. I use the bike as it is not as hard on my arthritis in my knees. I am hopeful that it will give me good results.  I have heard good things about it. I even bought a new set of scales, one with very large LED numbers that are easy to read. My old one was not very accurate and the numbers are too small for these aging eyes. I hate weighing myself but the program demands you weigh yourself every week same time if possible.