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I tried to lie in my own bed for the first time in over two weeks as the recliner is getting annoying and the broken shoulder started hurting. I am both extremes right now. So very restless but so down. I actually wondered how many pain pills it would take to end the pain completely. No one would miss me. I could, it would be so very easy. I hurt so much.
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I\'m so sorry that you\'re in such a rotten place!!!!
Not that your broken shoulder isn\'t reason enough to make you feel the way you do, do you think that the pain meds you are on might be chemically messing with your mood?
I know the feeling that no one would miss us if we were gone, but it\'s usually not true. There\'s almost always others who don\'t consider us worthless. It\'s only our own opinion of ourselves.
Actually, it\'s not so very easy to off yourself with pills. The chances are greater that, rather than kill you, the overdose would merely leave you much worse off than you were in the first place. Damage to your liver and/or kidneys and/or significant brain damage.
As wretched as you\'re feeling, please hang in there. I certainly understand why you feel the way you do, though. Chronic pain is so very, very wearing. It does indeed make life so difficult to bear!!
Sending you good wishes. Sorry you feel like crap!!! (((((Hugs)))))