I am definitely in mania mode. I've overspent and it's the first of the month so it's going to be rough the rest of the month. I got 3 hours of sleep...and it was one of those sleeps that was out of pure exhaustion. I didn't realize how tense I was until I laid down and realized every one of my muscles was tense. I didn't feel the tension until I felt them start to relax, however short lived. Gods I was so tense and shaking and didn't realize it. That's how bad sometimes the anxiety is. At least in those 3 hours, I was dead to the world. Sometimes I wish I never would wake up. It would be better off for everyone.