Okay, so my last post has sort of escalated...
i spent saturday night at a party and told my mum i was crashing there the night. i had planned to go to my BFs (he was with me) and tell mum i didnt feel comfy staying at the party.anyways alls good. shes harrassing me before i leave and half way throught the party. til i tel her to bug off. so this morning she txts me sayin that i didnt make sense, that it woulda been easier to go home than to my bfs... i told her i wanted to go to my bfs cause we can sleep in the same bed and things. its more relaxed than my house.anyways i left my phone in his room had brekkie and stuff and when i went to check my phone it had missed calls and stuff in it so i looked and shes calling me on things like drugs and smokes and cutting... SHE READ MY FUCKING DIARY.and then continued to have a go at me and then put it all on herself saying she missed it, she knew something was wrong when i was younger and should have helped me, making ME feel guilty for haveing prblems at allshe tried to say my BF is influencing me, making me have sex, making me be the way i am.
i've had it. this is it. next weekend is the royal show... after the show im off to a party... where? well she doesnt know does she. means she cant piss me off!!!!
i am utterly shattered right now, crying and shaking like a leaf in a sandstorm. <3 til next time...