I was awake for no longer than 13 minutes.. yes i looked at the clock.  12:13 noon and already i wanted to cut, cry, scream, drink or die.... My sister had another day off school which i would never have gotten, shes perfectly fine just doesnt wanna go so mum doesnt let her.i feel utterly useless without a job... i wanted to go out today do a little shopping, but as soon as i said mum  she huffed and i burst into tears, ran outside to do some work out in the stable.Nothing i do is good enough for anyone. my friends have given up on me, my mom thinks bad of me and its all just getting way too hardi wanna do so many things, but i keep getting told i cant. im 18 now. im legally able to do what ever i please... im just too respectful to disobey completely....
the world would be a better place without me in it.
xx

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idiosyncraticrose
idiosyncraticrose

\"friends have given up on me\"

Nuh uh.

\"the world would be a better place without me in it.\"

Bullshit.

You underestimate yourself. Your loved. You\'re a star. You just need a helping hand.
SecretlyDamaged
SecretlyDamaged

Ahhh, if only it was that easy... i need so much, its almost like im too far gone now.
most of my friends have stopped talking to me, trying to do things with me... my lifes on a horrible cycle... i\'ll probably lose them all soon.
idiosyncraticrose
idiosyncraticrose

Not me. So there! Your stuck with me.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Maybe you\'ll loose them but you can always get them back. I\'m Breah. I saw your post in pregnant teenagers about how nature screwed you. I\'ve miscarried & I have a 7 month old. I checked out your profile and from what I see you\'ve been through alot and are going through a lot but you can make it. Everything is reversible.
SecretlyDamaged
SecretlyDamaged

Thanks Breah, Boy or girl?
alot of the stuff ive been through i\'ve bought on myself.. but i admit i do blame nature for my loss of my kids. i sometimes blame myself for it too.
how about you? lets hope things reverse soonish:D
xxx thanks