I was awake for no longer than 13 minutes.. yes i looked at the clock.  12:13 noon and already i wanted to cut, cry, scream, drink or die.... My sister had another day off school which i would never have gotten, shes perfectly fine just doesnt wanna go so mum doesnt let her.i feel utterly useless without a job... i wanted to go out today do a little shopping, but as soon as i said mum  she huffed and i burst into tears, ran outside to do some work out in the stable.Nothing i do is good enough for anyone. my friends have given up on me, my mom thinks bad of me and its all just getting way too hardi wanna do so many things, but i keep getting told i cant. im 18 now. im legally able to do what ever i please... im just too respectful to disobey completely....
the world would be a better place without me in it.
xx