I need to write more, at home or here, but I need to write more.  I have a dental cleaning, first with braces, Wednesday.  I am going to approach them about coming more often than three months before they start because I know things are in bad shape, but it has been such a nightmare.  I do like my dental staff, and they should appreciate the fact that I want more help.  They are grateful that I am coming in every three months now for almost a year.  Then first will be adjustment Monday.  Losing weight.  Last night had lunch about 2:30, eggs and sausage, then cooked cubed steak at 6:30, ready about 7, ate at 7:30 through till 9:00.  Just kept eating little bit, by little bit.   My life sucks right now.  I know it mostly environmental though.  Sent my shrink an email on the Prozac but she has not responded yet.  I don’t think it is strong enough.  I am going to take the 2, 3, and 4th off.  The 2nd being my orthodontic appointment.  On the 3rd, I am going to try and climb Pike’s Peak, if, if I feel up to it.  Want to talk with orthodontist about getting vicodin.  Not to take all at once, but in morning, and noon time it really hurts and I must work.  If I had a couple to take when needed, I might have less pain and therefore feel better.  I see that certain things need to change and I am trying.  Still have not gotten to the point where I can ride my bike, I just can’t get motivated in the morning.