Why can't I kill myself? What is keeping me from doing it?
I'm so tired
I'm a failure
I can't do anything right
I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself
 
I'm always between killing myself or killing everyone else around me. 
 
I'm so scared of failing that I can't kill myself because the thought of not being able to do it right is always in the back of my mind. I don't want to fail.