Today

Hard day today already, i just want to sit and cry.  Jakes death is not what is holding me back its the effects that his death had on my body.  I am tired of fighting those things.  I know where my son is and he is in the arms of Jesus and he is in a perfect place but all the sickness that happened from not eating and gaining weight from not eating and  all the way down to us losing our house and my husband was out of work for over a year. 
I have started school, i needed to do something and i like that but the job market around here is not great.  My dad won't come out of his bedroom rarely after Jakes death, the business went under that we ran and my parents are having it tough too.  The burdens are too many and Jesus said he would never leave us or for us to bare too much but i think i have reached my limit for i am tired.