Well i have not heard anything yet.  They said it will probably be next week before they hear anything.  I feel so exhausted lately and i am so angry inside all the time.  I am stuck 14 miles from the nearest town and i have no car and no job and i need to be working.  My brother in law moved in with us 3 weeks ago and it is ok but i am tired of waiting on everyone.  I need prayer you all, we are about to go under here.  I am sooo tired of grieving alone.  My parents hurt too bad also.  Our church (that we attend every sunday) has never to this day checked up on us after my sons death and then for the last yr my husband (Jake's stepdad) plays his play station and left me in my bedroom for over a yr to grieve so now i have reached a boiling point where i am at a dangerous intersection.  If you were in a car wreck with the person you love and you both had broken legs. Who would go for help?  Nether because your legs are broken, so you would wait for someone to wak by and see that you needed help.  This is where i feel that my family is at, we all have broken legs and we have called for help but no one walking by seems to care.  I have had two friends since my sons death that have lost children and i made sure that i was there for them so they would not have to go it alone.  Alone is aweful.  A friend told me today that God does not give you more than you can bear and i said if he doesn't then why do believers kill themselves?  and they could not answer that.  So to end my rambling session i leave you with this.  Take all the good you can get because there is more bad than good.