Ok, i heard from my in laws and they have started him on hormone shots today.  They are going to give him an MRI to see if it has spread to his back and if it has that is a really bad thing.  He is already using a scooter to get around and i saw him just months ago and he was getting around very well.  He is going down hill fast.   On the other hand today i was angry because Jake is gone, i just don't understand this at all.  I just want to shoot myself most of the time but don't have the energy to do it.  I hope for a better tomorrow. Dawn