I had a bad night lastnight. A lot of crying for my son Jake. I just wanted to run away and hide and not come back. The memories sometimes flood me and i can't think straight. I just want to wake up from this nightmare i call life or life such as it is. Somedays, i feel like i can make it and others i don't know how to make it. The puzzle is missing pieces and it doesn't look complete without jake. There is no right way or wrong way to grieve a child. I just know that whatever way it is, it is the worst thing you can go thru. I scream so much in my mind and i don't know how to release it. Jake i miss and love you more than anything. Blessings to you all todayDawn Jake's mom
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My heart goes out to you...Please be gentle on/with yourself...It is the process we all have to go through called grieving - it sucks but there is NO way around it - you must go through it & you will get through it - kicking & screaming - and with lots of tears....I am here for you anytime you may need me....Hugs, Ann
Dawn Try getting in your car and driving to a place where there is nobody around and scream out you pain and sorrow. I do and it helps. I drive into the country and find a lonely spot and then I cry and scream and rant at God and everyone or anyone I want. I know it sounds crazy but you will feel much better and it upsets no one. Give it a try. Love and hugs Cathy
Thank you for sharing and i know that you all understand this pain so well.. I will kick and scream and go out away from all to get some relief. thank you my friends.
I\'m so very sorry for your bad night. I think the only way we do make it is because somedays we think we can make it and others we don\'t so we hang on to those ok days. I usually scream in my car on my way home from work. That\'s also when I talk to my son (or myself). It helps momentarily but I get it out. Hang on to those days where you think you can make it because hopefully there will be more of those days strung together. Thinking of you. Love Robin
i do understand what you are saying. it sounds like a trip to the dollar for some dishes to throw and break is much needed. love you! ~ charlayne