I finally got back on.  Saturday we had a storm and it knocked out the phone lines for a couple of days and now i am back on.  The internet is still very slow and irritating and i can not wait until they offer something better out here in no mans land.  I have had a good week the beginning of the week i actually cleaned very very deep monday and tuesday.  Yesterday i started crashing and i hit bottom again.  I am crying all the time and wanting to lay down and die.  I went to the cemetary today it has been 5months today since his death and my grandmother died 7yrs ago today so i went to their head stones.  She is buried right underneith him.  I am tired and i want to lie down right now and cry so i am going to let you all go and i will get on tomorrow.  (God willing)  I love you all and pray for you all.   DAwn

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I know how hard those days are. I am coming up on 6 months. My thoughts are with you. If you need to let it out. I am here for you. HUGS love lucille
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I wish I could hug you in person - It is so hard.
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Hang in there. We are all here for each other to get us through this pain. I\'m only coming up on 4 months and don\'t know how I\'ve made it this far so I keeping wishing the next 4 months to come and go. Hoping and praying 2008 will be a better year. Peace and comfort to you.
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Love & hugs, I hope you\'re feeling better. Jeff\'s 5 month day is tomorrow. I\'m right here with you.
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Hang in there - just keep putting one foot in front of the other - if that is all you can do that is fine....Your life is now a roller coaster you can never get off...Hugs, Ann
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Dawn I feel your pain and cry if you want. There are no time lines on cryying. Sometimes I find it\'s the only way I can sleep. Praying for you. Love and hugs cathy