I know that it has been awhile. I have tried to get on and the internet was so slow that i gave up. I am at my cousins house and she has broadband. I am finally getting aheadi think. Of course todayi feel as tho i want to scream and give up. I tell you you just don't know how to feel because every moment you feel something different. I miss my son but some of his memories seem cloudy now. It is like did the last 18 yrs last. I am really down right now so i will go and not depress you all. Love to you all.. DAwn
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I\'m with you on that one. Will we ever know happiness again? Right now it seems so illusive.
You are not depressing me, I\'m already on antidepressants so tough luck it\'s not working. Everyday that goes by some memory seems to fade and become not quite as sharp, are we forgetting or just trying to protect ourselves from the never ending pain. I hope the last cause if it\'s the first I\'d die with guilt. Please try to hold on to me and allow me to pull you through this low spot. Love and Hugs Cathy
{{{hugs}}} we are to here to lsiten whether you are sad or happy. never feel you are bringing us down. {{{hugs}}} love you! ~ charlayne
I also felt like you for a while fuzzy memories wondering if the last 18 years were really true or was my Baby boy a dream. He was not and I am glad I had him with me for the last almost 19 years. Your memory will get clear again, this I promise. I am with you I also have a sixteen year old daughter who is having such a hard time going on. Will help our girls together okay. Love Melissa
Please don\'t feel like you are depressing me. We all know the pain and mood swings. I know how much you miss your son. I feel the same. We have a long hard road to walk. I have fell many...times. I try to get back up and crawl. Hang on love lucille
I know how you feel, because sometimes my memories are fuzzy too.. its frustrating, but i have clear days. write your feelings down because that\'s the best way to feel better, don\'t worry about depressing anyone! (i think most of us are already there!)
Dawn, you can\'t depress us because we understand. We are there or have been there. Hold on my friend, it is just another turn on this terrible rollercoaster ride. We all walk together. Lots of hugs jake\'s mom kathy
We have been where you are now - so depress us all you want - that is what we are here for - the good thoughts & the bad days...Hugs, Ann
you will not depress me -feel the same way all the time -it hurts and its bad no other choice but to just keep going though -thinking of you carol