I went to a babyshower today, was a little hard at first but all in all it was nice.  It is difficult to see someone in the place you were at 19 yrs ago then you loose them.  I wonder what is ahead for some of these new mothers.  I pray that they don't have to go thru this awful tradgedy that we have all endured.  I loved all of your comments from my journal yesterday i even got a nice smile.  It seems that i go back in my mindseye more now than ever when Jake was a little guy and think about some of his stunts he pulled and it brings a smile.  My daughter is going to missouri for a week on Monday with her bestfriend and her mother and i think it will be good for her to get out and enjoy.  I hope she has a good time and forget some of this heartache here.  Unfortunately you have to come back to what you left behind.  Well i hope you all are fine and well and many blessings to youDawn Jake's mom