Today is ok again.  I did work out a little this morning.  Last night was a little depressing.  I cried for a moment and then it passed.  I was having a Jake moment again.  Looking at the chair that he used to sit in at the computer is difficult and seeing his pictures and he telling me 3 days before he went into the hosptial about how much he loves me and that he wanted to have a wife and children.  It is funny sometimes to know that some 18yr olds think of only themselves but not Jake.  Love you JakeHave a good day all and lots of blessingsDawn