Pain

Yesterday was 2 months that I lost my Luis, life is still real stinky.  I just hate being here.  I try to keep myself busy but it just doesn't work.  You are constantly on my mind and I still have so many questions what happened what went wrong and why? I know people say that time will help so far it's not helping at all.  Luis you are in my heart and mind forever I have to say for some of the people that are out there and are doing well God bless them because they are super strong I have so many details to take care of and each day it throws me back.  Here comes the holiday and everyone has plans and I sit here lonely wondering why me?  I pray and pray and pray and I wait for some peace.  I take melatonin and it helps a little but being on that bed alone is awful.  Luis I miss you and love you till the day I join you.  I have tons of headaches because I cry so much.