pain

i've tried to keep my head high but it gets a little difficult when you just carn't seem to get up off the floor, always to many people to kick you in the teeth, just to many things that hurt. i just don't want to hurt anymore
 
doesn't matter how hard you try sometimes you just have to know when to let go. i'm not supposed to be this useless, not supposed to let them down, not supposed to get them so angry. i'm supposed to be the one that brings it all together, i am nothing if i carn't do that.
tell me how to stop, how not to care about it, how to walk in and just let the shift pass no matter what, no matter what.how do i stop this weakness though , how can i make them and the job better. how do i make their targets work with little and no help and how do i change what i am, please tell me how because i cannot afford to lose this fight,
 
maybe i have lost my last fight, maybe the most important fight i could ever lose.

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bebu
bebu

Sweetie, you are being way too hard on yourself. We are all human, and not only do we make mistakes, we need to be the one to be taken care of sometimes. I know the feeling of not wanting to care - it would make things so much easier. Please don\'t give up fighting - I care. Luv and hugs Faith
Saz41
Saz41

You haven\'t lost the fight hun, you just need a break...you are too hard on yourself...you\'re not super woman. I hope you can find the strength inside that we both know is there, don\'t let them get you down. You are loved and you deserve better than this. Take care. Xxx
cookiemon
cookiemon

i deserve nothing if i cannot do my job, they don\'t understand the production on those lines has to work, i have to be able to make it work. if i carn\'t i have nothing and may aswell not be here or anywhere. i may aswell just give up
Saz41
Saz41

sounds like you are doing everything that you can to make it work. Maybe there are external factors stopping it from working. I still think you deserve to be gentle with yourself. I really hope things get better, Take care. X