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don't think i trust myself any more, how can i say all the right things to the people i care about yet lie the person in the mirror. i am more of a fraud now than i have ever been before,just because i hide it doesn't change who i really am.i feel like i've let everyone down but worst of all i've let myself down. it doesn't take a mastermind to realise that one day i won't be able to stop myself harming,if not by blade by some other method.wish it would just take me and have done with it.i don't even feel like me anymore. kinda wish there was something just to explainwhat the hell is happening to me, i never wanted sympathy from anyone,yet it seems thatsall i want, maybe i just want someone to notice that i'm doing my best,or maybe i just need to accept that my best is just not enough, maybe nothing i do will ever be enough.maybe theres only one thing left to do.maybe i should just get it over with and stop the pain.....

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Saz41
Saz41

I want the right words to say but I don\'t have them. I hear you hun, loud and clear. I am thinking of you and I care. I know you are doing your best and it needs to be the best for YOU, not anyone else. I hope the pain eases.
Please let me know if there is anyway I can help - I love you!
bebu
bebu

Sweetie - you are doing your best - and it is enough. I truly hope you find away to ease the pain, in a positive way. Luv and hugs Faith