I'm at my end. I can feel it. I'm not entirely apathetic yet, but it's coming. My heart is heavy. Everything hurts. I am so thankful for the weather because I am covered in cuts that people would run in fear if they saw me. I want all of this to end right now. I don't want any excuses or people or things blocking my path to my grave anymore. I need so badly for everyone to stop caring and stop trying to help and just let me go. Please please please.

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VolatileVacuum
VolatileVacuum

Yeah, but I don\'t have any urge to help myself because I don\'t want to get better most of the time. I know it\'s weird, but I feel like it needs to get a million times worse. I feel like I deserve the absolute worst level of depression there is.