I hate being awake. Unless I'm asleep I feel incredibly restless and irritable, and all I want to do is slam my head into a wall until I'm unconscious. And it's always like this. No matter how much I have to do, I can never stop feeling like something is missing and that I'm not doing enough. 
Sometimes I think about killing myself just because it would be something to do. Slitting my throat seems more appealing than sitting in front of the tv for another day.