I just found out that my friends have been lying to me about being grounded for days and are partying behind my back. I don't understand why, I didn't think I was that terrible of a person that they would have to do that. 
I've been crying and cutting all day, and I feel like I'm going to vomit. The worst part is they don't care enough to hide it. They posted pictures all over facebook. It's like they think I'm an idiot. 
My mom could care less. She didn't even ask me what was wrong when she saw me crying. I literally have no one. Even the people I used to talk to on the internet have lives now and don't care. I HAVE NO ONE TO CONFIDE IN. I'm going to lose it again, I can feel it, and no one gives a shit. I'm beginning to think no one ever gave a shit.