I’m so confused about the rest of my life. 
I can’t get a job: The unemployment rates in this town are higher than they’ve ever been. But even if they weren’t, my social anxiety and extreme lack of experience wouldn’t get me anywhere.
I can’t go to college: My family keeps pushing me towards college, but this won’t happen for a number of reasons. I believe in self-education, we have absolutely no money, my social anxiety and fear of rejection would keep me from going to and passing classes, and you kinda need to graduate high school before you can enroll in a college. There is a big chance that I won’t be getting a high school diploma.
I can’t just sit on my ass and hope it resolves itself, because it won’t. I’ve spent far too many years thinking like that and I suddenly found out how horribly wrong I was. I have a year to figure everything out and that doesn’t seem like enough time. I feel like I don’t have any options. None that I wish to explore, at least. I hate that I’ve let my life get this far off track.