It's over

A month ago, I met a man, who I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. But today, it proved that I was wrong.
Tim and I broke up, I feel like I am back to where I was a year ago, emotionally. Maybe I just deserve to be alone. I had my chance at true love, when Paul and I were together and it was just too good to last, I just don't see it happening again.
After losing Tim today, it makes me even more scared at love.
I admit that the big reason for the break up was my fault. Because of the way I acted and treated Tim this past weekend. I was not myself, I was someone, who I never wanted to be.