I havent been able to sleep.  My sleeping is sporatic.  I sleep best in the daytime.  I have trouble sleeping at night.  My ears wait for him to come in, but he no longer lives here.  He creeps in here whenever.  It's time for me to get my key back.  When I ask him to give me something definate regarding when he's gonna take care of the kids or how long he gets quiet.
were texting back and forth and i ask r u gonna take all the kids and silence. 
he doesnt like to answer questions directly.
he finally asnwered
im afraid i will miss the baby so much.  the others im not as attached to. or they arent as attached to me.  mostly i just fulfill there needs while the baby...we are close?
idk what it is, shes very affectionate with me and i with her...the others not so much.  i will miss the affection.
but she will soon return and monopolize my time.
what shall i do with 2 days to myself?
unpack
wash dishes
sleep
go for a drive?
pump milk
her highness is awake again