ok.....

so Ive sent my first payment to the divorce lawyer and Ive filed for support. spousal and child....its.....what is it? necessary? do i even love my husband anymore? i don't like him. i definitely don't like the way hes been treating me.  so y is it so difficult to let go of a marriage with such a person? because for me the marriage is about much more than the other person.  its about God, family, children etc... so for those reasons its been hard. and maybe i do still love him even though i don't like him.  i'm well on my way to "freedom?"  im already free.  its a state of mind.  so i guess im on my way to being legally free and getting regular help financially.  thats it.