my head is throbbing. ive bn up since 630 so iguess im reaally tired.  i wonder if im settling.  i gott this book the love dare.  where a spouse practices unconditional love.  i really thought we could do it 2gether but my h doesnt wanna love me unconditionally.  h is lazy when it comes 2 relationships.  he says b/c we r progressing that there;s no need.  it dont take all that.  mediocrity is ok.  i dont really nd 2 love u hard.  im trying 2 accept him as is but i kp feeling disappointed.  ne healing i am receiving has nothing 2 do with him.  but do i wanna b married 2 someone who disappoints me continuously.  i want a great love and h is happy with love? im nt even sure if he nds that. his expectations r mad low.