i want 2 feel safe again.  right now im not thinkn about sex.  im sleepy.  i am thinking of spooning with someone and being held while i fall sleep.  i dont feel safe with him.  he didnt want me.  he wanted her.  and it wasnt that long ago.  it sucks.  i dont know  if hell ever b able 2 prove that he wants only me.  i dont know that ill ever blieve that. i dont even know that its possible.  so im down here watchin tv wondering where i could go. where can i go @ 1:41 am that isnt gonna put me in harms way emotionally spiritually or physically.