last nite husband didnt come 2 bed.  fell asleep downstairs.  i fell asleep upstairs.  i woke around 1:48.  went down.  couldnt sleep after that.  tossed and turned alot.  he came 2 bed.  had a feeling that hes talking 2 her.  checked house phone cause hes not gonna call her on cell. he knows im chking it.  so i hit redial and theres her number.  he says he did not call her. that he fell asleep. he claims that he dialed but hung up and another day.  then later in the day @church he tells me that he thinks hes going 2 die soon.  im like if u continue playn w/God sure nuf.  that looks like manipulation 2 me.  let me get some sympathy b4 i get caught in yet another lie.  im thinking of pulling the phone records.  i blieve that hes talking 2 her.  maybe at work.  from a landline.  maybe even gone 2 c her.  says that he cld b just friends with her.  he misses the friendshp and nothing else.  hes gotta b in denial.  i wonder if i shd even bother 2 chk the phone etc.  why bother.  am i gonna put him out right now?  i dont  know.  how much am i willing 2 put up with?  its him whose going 2 be out of the will of God and suffering.  i will pray 4 him