this situation has shaken my faith.  i feel like why wld God allow this 2 go on so long and not let me know.  My mother tells me to give it 2 God and right now i dont just not trust my husband I dont quite trust God.  I dont feel like God wishes me well.  The way I put  it is we are in conflict.  I feel that I want 2 move out.  And God is blocking that.  Perhaps God sees that as not the best thing.  Kinda hurts.  it was ok 4 h to cheat on me for 2 years but i cant find a job so i can move on.  i cant move out and expect h 2 pay my rest.  i dont even know if we cld afford it on just his salary.  i dont wanna bring down the household with what i wanna do.  if i go its on my own terms.  but i nvr had a prob getting a job & now no one wants 2 hire me.  so here i sit.