had a blow up with steve last night.  i was out and didnt answer his call.  he was afraid that i was leaving 2 never come back.  he must think im crazy.  i love my children.  i wouldnt leave 4ever w/o them.  maybe 4 a few days but nt 4ever.  then this morning we had sex.  it wasnt 2 make up.  ive just been so horny.  i think ill ask my counselor about this.  or find a book.  it might b good that i do some reading.