i fl like im losing my h again. weve bn connecting in spite of b/c of this ordeal. ive bn reaching out 2 him and allowing him 2 reach out 2 me in spite of what hes done. hoping that we can cultivate a relationship. and now hes coming to grips or rather beginning 2 come 2 grips. maybe he was kidding himself. i am dealing with it. i am dealing with that he commited adultery. i am dealing with that hes not bn emotionally available 4 2 years. im dealing w/it much better than wld b expected. so maybe 4 that reason he kid himself that it wasnt that bad? now that the ow was unwilling 2 even here him out, he is faced with how he has wronged her. kinda pisses me off b/c again i fl 4gotten. hes depressed b/c she's so distraught. he wronged her so much. he only broke his vows 2 me. shes really unstable and im not. im handling. im low functioning, but i seem 2 b ok.