looked at my phone.  wondering if hed send a message.  wondering if hed checked in.  nvr told him 2.  its unrealistic.  he has and then 2 day he went for a ride and didnt tell me.  i wondered did he go c her.  did he have sex with her?  it effects me and that wld b tragic after me giving him another chance,but it isnot my problem.  i have 2 climb out of depression and do more than move on.  i want 2 b able 2 look back at this time and know that i became better.  that the devil did not destroy my family or me.  i am resolved to be better and 2 not be dsetroyed.