cant keep looking at the emails and journals and etc. i chked his computer and hard drive.  its conterproductive.  he made love 2 her the day b4 our wedding anniversary in 2007.  that sucks big time.  he doesnt even remember.  that he was looking 2 someone else 4 comfort when i was willing and able, sucks.  hurts a lot.  reading her journal was enlightening and hard. made me cry some.  made me angry some. im gonna try 2 let it go.  if he loves me and wants 2 work this out as i do, then it doesnt matter what he did.  its over now.