working out & eating going pretty well.  i fl gd, but i did last wk 2.  i dont know what's going on w/ my body.  ive amped up my wrkout.  ive bn so tired lately.  not wrking.....i like the freedom,but i hate not getting a paycheck....lol.  i was about 2 say having nothing 2 do, but looking @ the houses  disarray there's much 2 b done.  i just dont wanna do it.  ive make great dinners though.  i made myself a lovely salad.  ive bn staying up late on the computer...watching tv.  and then i dont wanna get up in the morn. i get up around 10 or 11 and the start my day.  id like 2 get up & c the children off 2 camp.  and then go back 2 sleep & then wake & clean.  ive bn so drained  & drowsy lately. some is the heat im sure.  the rest may b stress.  my oldest (8) is going 2 va 2 vis her bio father.  i agree she shd go,but im fling some anxiety.  they r more permissive than iam & she always comes back hyper & disobedient.  its like i have 2 reprogram her.  im gonna snd her w/ a cell this time so ill b in constant contact. i dont always know where she is...shemight b @ her dad's or her grandmom's, or her aunt's.  it'll b easier 2 just call 1 # and i want her 2 b able 2  call whenever she wants.  well after 7...lol.  & this wk is my sis bride shower & my anniversary & i have yet 2 find a reasonable rm.  iwanna b on the boardwalk.  & then im singing @ the wedding the next wk.  & i have 2sing @ church that morn 2.  all things i like...im excited, but it will b stressful.  im just trying 2 plan ahead.  i nd 2 find a place 2 get my gown cleaned.  i know its not my day, but i wanna lk gd. i dont often get 2 dress up.  i have a headache right now.  dont know why.  prob tired.....