it irritates me.  annoys me that just b/c someone is related 2 u by marriage, they fl they have the right 2 tell u about anything they think is wrong.  doesnt fl lk its from a place of love...just criticism.  made me angry.  hus aunt did this 2 me.  i tld him bad enuf i have 2 hear it from ur mother,and now from ur aunt 2.  he was angry 2.  sd he has 2 go through it w/his fam all the time & b/c i am his wife that i must suffer it also.  basically urging me not 2 take what she says 2 heart & 2 deal w/it.  im so tired & the heat is not helping.  i just want 2 b left alone. im irriated & hot. makes me not want 2 do anything.  cause when i start moving i start sweating.  theres so much laundry that nds 2 b done.  massive amnts of laundry. i fl lk my life sucks so much.  i fl trapped.  its by choice which makes it worse.  im working in a stupid job i dont want 4 money.  im so unsatisfied.  its me. ive flt this way 4 so long.  when i was single i wanted a man.  i had no children, i wanted them. now i have them & they sometimes feel like a hindrance.  Lord what is this ache in me?  i seek u.  i seek what u want 4 me. & i fl i keep missing the mark. no matter whats going on i fl dissatisfied.  if i go back 2 school then i have 2 give up my down time.  tv chillin, computer, etc.  laundry & household work still must be done.....children still nd 2 b fed etc. ill still nd 2 work.  and i have 2 find some way 2 pay 4 it.  Lord im frustrated and afraid 2 try.  tired  of being let down.  tired of letting myself down.  the children sm 2 b ansy.  my guess they're hot.  im very irritable b/c of the heat.  humidity is terrible.  its 5...nd 2 do dinner. im hungry.  i kp eating junk.  its cause of my mood.